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Friends, it has been a minute. And what a minute it has been. To jump right in and keep the over-sharing to a minimum, I learned this week that I have been living with undiagnosed ADHD. I did the full, 4.5 hour battery of psych testing about a month ago and just had my feedback session this past Tuesday. It’s been a lot of processing since then. Reading, watching videos, learning. I didn’t walk out of the testing (or into it) convinced that I had ADHD. Just sort of wondered if that’s why I’ve been trying so hard for so long and nothing seemed to be getting easier or smoother. Especially inside my head. It’s been fascinating to read about how ADHD manifests in women, because I had none of the “typical” markers that one might imagine when they hear the term ADHD. I won’t go into my entire history, but reading this article made me weep. And “weep” is the correct word. It was like opening a window into my 15 year old brain. And 22. And 28. And 31. And 36. And 39.

http://drellenlittman.com/secret_life_of_girls_with_adhd.pdf

I have decided to start meds, and today will be my first dose. I feel nervous and a little anxious about it, since I don’t want to lose essential parts of myself. I’m told that the right med and the right dose make it easier to be yourself. And that makes me feel hopeful. Mostly I’m hopeful. Hopeful that this diagnosis will help me make sense of so many areas where I have struggled for so long and help me move forward in areas where I haven’t known how to (but have wanted to, very much).

On a simpler note, some recent treasures have included: a $10 cinnamon pumpkin muffin candle from Target, a soft orange duster sweater from Marshall’s, Brooke Ligertwood’s (née Fraser) album “Seven”, and finally finishing Doris Kearns Goodwin’s beast of a book “The Bully Pulpit.” If you’re at all a fan of American history, I cannot recommend this book more. Who knew that William Howard Taft was a more admirable president and all-around human than the much-applauded Teddy Roosevelt?

Anyways, much love to you all. Looking forward to reading everyone’s treasures!

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Oh my Lil Swipes. I have been MIA for a little while. A huge, unexpected medical bill, a family member in the hospital, a busy few work weeks, a lot of homesickness for my family and for Michigan, and what feels like a million baby showers have stressed me out to the point of crawling back into a hole.

Am I a bad person if I never attend another baby shower? I will buy gifts off the registry. I will like the million baby photos that come after birth. I think I just have one (1) baby shower left in me. And that’s it.

I have a really busy weekend (40th birthday party tonight! Bake sale tomorrow! A FREAKING BABY SHOWER TOMORROW! Dinner with a friend! I need to bake a million things!) so I am going to treat myself with coffee this morning.

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