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Friends... It is Wednesday after U.S. Labor Day, so of course it already feels like it should simultaneously be Tuesday & Saturday. Lawd.

We had our first virtual session of a church ministry last night and it was sort of a disaster, but also super sweet?? But also, I put in tons of time & effort to make sure all of the groups were balanced when it comes to genders & ages and it WAS A COMPLETE MESS and now I'm trying to let go of my control of the situation, but y'all I AM SO SALTY! Like too salty. Way TOO salty. It was less than 24-hours ago, but now the "team leader" is trying to back track to figure out the issue to fix it (and I know we just had an email miscommunication), but I am just a little bit heartsick about it. And I've been super dramatic all day and just want to curl up and be done with the week, but that's not an option. Ugh. At least I don't have to take care of other human beings. #singlelady #nokids

Treasure: MY SISTER IS HAVING A BABY ANY DAY NOW! (I'm just a tad bit excited.) So no matter how grumpy I am, I also am not 38 weeks pregnant in the middle of summer.

An even though only having 24-hours a week/part time is LAME when it comes to my finances, I am super thankful for the extra margins this week. One day more and I am free until Monday. *Praises*

Love you all sweet friends and thanks for being here...I swear I read some of y'all's posts, but then got distracted by previously mentioned church ministry. (I'll get over it, I swear!) <3

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Those Target pants look amazing --*add to cart*. However, I watched the little video when you flip through to see how the pants look from different angles and the model pulls a PASSPORT out of her pocket. Like, girl, my passport is getting no action until ~2022. What a flex.

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I almost never get a chance to comment because I either read this two weeks late or in mini breaks between zoom meetings. Bleh. I have an Alone Saturday, the best kind, today and this newsletter is a balm to my harried week. Thanks Erin.

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Thank you for, well, all of this. β™₯️β™₯️

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Dang I love y’all.

If you have a nook of space free in your prayer life, would you pray for me? Sparing all the TMI details, I found out yesterday that what was supposed to be a simple hernia repair that I can push off for a few months, is much more complex and there are actually 4 hernias (maybe more) and my entire abdominal wall needs to be repaired. So I have a surgery date for October 9th. Unfortunately we were supposed to leave for our honeymoon October 16th (we’re getting married on the 25th of this month! πŸŽ‰), so we’ll have to postpone a bit.

I feel all the things. I had emergency surgery last year after almost dying, so all of these issues now are coming from them that previous surgery. Reopening all of that and this process just feels really scary and too much right now.

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Receiving these has been the best part of my Fridays for a little while now. I realized there was a whole thread of comments on these newsletters a few months ago when I had first moved to Florida from PA. Ever since, reading this has helped me stay sane. Your comments are my treasures today. I like to listen, so thank you for letting people into your lives and sharing your TikToks. I so appreciate you all.

My other treasure is that I finally have close-to-perfected my scallion pancake recipe. I mixed the ingredients and steps 1-3 of this recipe: https://www.simplyrecipes.com/recipes/scallion_pancakes/ with steps 2-11 of this recipe: https://www.thekitchn.com/how-to-make-scallion-pancakes-cooking-lessons-from-the-kitchn-107405

Plus, I added a scrambled egg and folded the pancake over it in half like an omelet. It was so perfect I could cry tears of joy.

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Oh that sounds so delicious! I’ll have to get it a try!

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You’re correct, Erin, β€œwho are you voting for?” definitely meant the president when I asked. To be honest, I was really hoping you would answer because many β€œreligious” people shy away from this question which usually means they’re voting for Trump. But I knew you’d have a great answer either way.

I’m having some very tough conversations with childhood and family friends who are evangelicals, typically single issue voters, and white (but I probably didn’t need to tell you that) about why I’m not voting for Trump and your answer helps shape my answers to them. Thank you ❀️

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You guys

Not sure if you all were lifting prayers for me..... but I got the clear to work from home some mornings every other week!!! My boss was insanely flexible for me because my 6 years of typeA work ethic have shown my being trusted, always busy and taking care of things. Phew

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I’ve never kept a list of treasures or the other (I can’t say the tβ€”d word. I keep hearing my dad in my head saying, β€œThis is not the speech of a lady.” πŸ˜‚), but maybe I should start keeping a list. It might help to temper the garbage that seems to fester in my brain by returning to the few moments that actually made me laugh/smile/cry-with-joy. What does come to mind now are two competing moments of the week:

1) I went legit Mama Bear with righteous anger on behalf of my young mother niece who was sent to the hospital with her 6-month-old because he hasn’t gained more than a pound since birth. She’s had to stay in the hospital 2 days alone, because COVID, and in that time the pediatrician actually told her that (a) she is either mixing the baby formula wrong or (b) she’s a neglectful mother 😑😑😑, and then told her he was reporting her to child services for a visit. 😀😀😀😀 This poor young mom, who already has a robust 2-year-old at home, went into complete shock and depression, questioning her ability as a mom [which her Enneagram 4-ness already screamed loudly at her], and there was only a stream of nurses to walk her through it. Those nurses have been AMAZING and told her that they know what a neglectful mother looks like and my niece isn’t one, and the hospital social worker was encouraging, too. But, my God, did her doctor do a number on my niece’s psyche. Because we can’t be at the hospital, I spent an afternoon texting all manner of praise and affirmation to my niece while also railing about the doctor. To my absolute shame, I also invoked white privilege and told her to use it to get more tests run. πŸ˜³πŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™€οΈ I’m not proud of that. I had to apologize. But I found myself thinking about all the women of color whom the healthcare industry ignore and disbelieve, and I let the thought run too far into saying β€œit’s shameful we have such privilege when others don’t, but use it since it’s there.” 😣 I’m not proud of where my mind went. If I said the tβ€”d word, I’d call myself that very thing this week. I’m definitely grateful for all the antiracism reading and learning of this year to help me through these shameful moments in life.

The issue with my niece isn’t solved, and my grandnephew is still being treated in the hospital, but she’s decided to switch doctors once they are discharged. I’m still fuming about the entire situation and the crushing blow to this young momma. It’s a true low point of the week.

2) As is God’s way, I found music was a balm to my soul. On the same day of the text ranting with my niece, I was running errands within a 5-hour span that took me 40 miles in multiple directions (because Texas), and I chose the HAMILTON soundtrack as my road trip tunes after switching playlists three times before finding a fit for my emotions. I’m new to the Ham music so it’s still a mostly fresh listen for me, but it was the PERFECT accompaniment to a day of emotional stress. I’m still in these camps on this third or fourth listen:

β€” Daveed is a god I can worship πŸ₯°

β€” Burr is still a favorite character, a surprise I’m not quite settled with yet but has everything to do with Odom and his heartfelt performance

β€” Christopher Jackson takes me TO CHURCH

But a new revelation also hit me this time: the fact of Lin’s less-robust vocals is a perfect match to the young, scrappy, hungry Hamilton that’s presented. It hadn’t clicked before, but now I see that a more polished vocalist just wouldn’t have fit the unpolished A.Ham. And it was one more level of genius to LMM and his opus. All credit to Erin Moon for your intense reverence for HAMILTON that forces us to dive deep.

3) This man’s racetrack for kids has warmed my soul this week:

https://youtu.be/3xj-J0NUuk8

Thanks to all of you for being my treasures *every* week. ❀️

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Jules -

1 - Sorry about the niece. :(

2 - DAVEED YES!!!! Burr - yes. Christopher Jackson. YES.

And thank you for your new revelation because I am always slightly annoyed at his lack of power-houseness when compared to the rest of the cast.

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So sorry to hear about all of that with your niece this week!

Hamilton always just seems to be perfect soundtrack to everything. I listed to it pretty much non stop (pun not originally intended) while finishing my graduate degree the summer. It got me throughhhhh those very stressful weeks.

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I'm really excited about the Mulan remake, The Oh Hellos' new EP, and Waterloo sparkling water!

Big personal treasure: I reconciled with a dear friend of mine after some frosty words and looks were given right before COVID lockdowns. I'm best friends with his on again girlfriend (and I am actually for them getting back together!) and they sent me flowers and invited me to dinner at their house when I told them I decided to go back to therapy. A friend of mine texted me after I had this conversation and said "don't you feel like the world is brand new and anything is possible?" And I was able to confidently say yes, even in the suck-bucket that is 2020. I didn't say yes because life is going to suddenly get rosier...I said yes because God is in the business of the impossible and a whole lot of impossible happened in the span of two weeks. <3

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I love this

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I know it's kinda cheesy, but it feels like the worship song "Reckless Love" actually became real life for me and anything feels possible now. Okay, I'm done.

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My greatest treasure this week was rediscovering early 2000’s pop punk. I was going for a run (the third one this year, mind you, because pandemics do not motivate me to joyful movement) and played pop punk bops to get me going, intertwined with musical numbers (My Shot featured, as did From Now On from Greatest Showman). What beautiful angst pop punk brought us. What a gift.

Also it’s now Spring here in Australia and my tomatoes are all sprouting and the trees are slowly getting leaves back and I feel hopeful.

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Thank you for saying β€œpandemics do not motivate joyful movement.” I haven’t had the words for this feeling yet, but it’s definitely where I’ve been living.

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So are we talking like New Found Glory? Because I still have one of their CDs. There was this fraternity band when I was in college that used to do all the pop punk...and it was glorious. You might have fueled my joyful movement for the next week with this suggestion.

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There was some NFG in there. A bit of Ataris, some Strike Anywhere (Infrared is my angry running jam), and a variety of Blink 182 member’s other bands. Angels & Airwaves, you have my heart.

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I've been following some awesome Registered Dietitians lately on IG. One is The Sassy Dietitian and she recommended the Liquid IV, but I decided to wait to try them. Then you posted about them so I went back to my weekly e-mails because she has a website link that gets you a discount PLUS free shipping!

Also, following these awesome RDs on IG has seriously helped me see diet culture, my body, etc. very very differently. I even started reading Intuitive Eating. Food stuff and body stuff is just hard, y'all.

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Oh man---preach. I've been in recovery for an eating disorder for the last year and my therapist focuses on Intuitive Eating. It's changed my life, but it's HARD WORK. Three cheers for you, though, for trying to forge a healthier relationship with food and your body. It's so, so, so worth the work.

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Okay, friends, deep breaths.

It's the last day of two weeks of teacher prep (and 50,000 other things) before kids come back to hybrid schooling on Tuesday. All week I have felt like Hercules Mulligan when he says "we in the sh*t now, somebody's gotta shovel it", but like, maybe with less enthusiasm? His feelings in that moment in Hamilton come across as a lot less nuanced than mine. I'm just tired and school hasn't even started yet. Heavy Ts and Ps for anything having anything to do with education right now.

Possible turds:

- I turned on one dating app again this week - not really sure why with my schedule, but also why not? πŸ€·πŸΌβ€β™€οΈ

- hybrid school scheduling - every time I think I've found the solution, something else pops up. Actually, this is a possible turd, it's a definite one. πŸ˜‚

Couple of treasures this week:

- Online shopping continues to be a delight. Thank you, J Crew clearance sales. Secondary thanks to Old Navy for their cute masks. Being able to have my mask coordinate with my outfit is a simple joy I would have never consider in 2019.

- This mash up of You Will Be Found and The Story of Tonight by Ben Platt and Lin Manuel Miranda. I may have cried the first time I heard it. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2aQykuIaJVI&ab_channel=AtlanticRecords

- How to spot a poor argument on tik tok - https://www.tiktok.com/@emersonbrophy/video/6860414477184011525

I will be spending the entire weekend at the pool in my complex, in order to mentally prepare for next week. I can't wait to read all of your treasures this week!

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I'm beginning my career as a school social worker this year and doing it all remotely. I'm definitely putting that Herc quote on a sticky note above my desk.

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Heavy Ts and Ps for you too! I found saying that in hard moments helps. We admit it’s sh*tty but it’s fine what we gotta do πŸ€·πŸΌβ€β™€οΈ

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Oh MY gosh. I clicked that Ben Platt/Lin-Manuel link so fast...watched it after a very hard day and SOBBED. Thank you πŸ’• My husband was amazed at how much I am THE target audience for that exact video 🀣

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Right?! I cried yesterday when I listened to it for the bazillionth time. I love me some Lin Manuel Miranda (#teamerin), but Ben freaking Platt 😍😍😍😍😍😍

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That Hercules Mulligan line is one of my favorites! So good and applicable to lots of things right now. Sending you so many good vibes - teachers are amazing always, but especially in the midst of a pandemic. ❀️❀️

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I am a high school teacher who just finished week 4 of hybrid teaching and laughed out loud at your "we in the sh*t now, somebody's gotta shovel it" comment. Accurate. I have nothing much to offer, but my students have been incredibly gracious, patient and helpful. The hybrid model (while a complete BEAST to try and tackle) has at least allowed me to connect eyeball to eyeball with most of my students. I am exhausted too, but seriously, please reach out if you have ANY questions. I only have a few more weeks under my belt but would be happy to help you shovel your shit a bit more efficiently (emily.geldmeier@gmail)

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Beast is definitely a fitting name. I teach elementary special ed (academic support/resource/whatever you would like to call it ☺️). I’ll be sending you an email, I’ll take any extra experience I can get!

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My aunt works in special ed as a consultant and I’m college planning to go into special ed. It seems like SUCH a crazy world to try to navigate during COVID!! Praying for you!πŸ’•

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I needed (so NEEDED) the Trash Debate tik tok. Thank you!

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You’re welcome!

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I am a former teacher and you have ALLLLL my T's and P's. I cannot imagine being a teacher right now and I applaud your coping mechanism of the pool. Teachers shovel s*** with the best of them, and I know you've got this!

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Ha! That we do!

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Well that mash up was a good start to my Saturday. Or bad. Is crying good or bad?

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For me, it’s normally a little bit of both.

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It is a STRANGE time to be a teacher. I am failing to wrap my mind around it every day I come to work now. The past two days our kids have come in two batches. I asked them questions and they just didn't respond. They were masked zombies. This will be my biggest fake it til you make it year of teaching yet.

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We have separate cohorts too. We had some in the building last week, for the most part, they seemed pretty happy. These are elementary students though, so most of them were thrilled to be back. As of on my co-workers was walking a new kindergartener to his classroom he said, with awe in voice, β€œso, this is what a school is like?”. It was too pure and sweet.

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I was a teacher for 12 years and that fake-it-till-you-make-it feeling never goes away. You've got my high five coming to you---I'm so impressed by people who haven't run away from this super crazy challenge of teaching in a pandemic. Gooooo you!

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Thank you! Those Ts and Ps extend far beyond just teachers - we’re all struggling and there is enough to go around ☺️

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Hello! Also new here! Found you from the Lazy Genius and then solidified the relationship through all of the Hamilton content. The β€œlife on the moon” metaphor resonated with me too - I feel just constantly drained ALL the time lately. And also, I work at NASA so space nerd me liked that whole train ignore thought.

πŸ€“ FUN FACT - one of the contingency scenarios when we send astronauts back to the moon is that if they have a pressure leak in the Orion vehicle, they have to get in to their spacesuits and glue poop bags to each others’ butts (since they can’t get out of their suits) for the 5 day emergency abort trip back home!

Here’s to NO POOP BAGS as our little win right now. πŸ₯‚

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Poop bag butt-gluing is a whole new level and I can’t even πŸ˜‚πŸ’© Thank you for helping me learn and laugh this morning, Lauren!! 😊

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Cheers to no poop bags! That gave me a much needed laugh.

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Oh no what have I done?!? 😳😳

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Thank you for your sweet encouragement last week. You are the best.

I am so glad for a long weekend!

I am really enjoying NeedToBreathe's new album. (currently listening!) and binging Rizzoli and Isles. I plan to rest a lot this weekend and maybe read. I sent my nieces their bi-weekly gifts and they loved them. Timber got some PJ masks seek and find books and a no-mess marker coloring book. I am just thankful she has moved on from Trolls I was running out of ideas! Toccoa got some after soccer practice snacks like beef jerky and a book she has been waiting to come out since May. I am so thankful for amazon so I can send them fun treats so I can't see them. However, with the soccer season starting we will get to see each other social distance style at games! It should be interesting.

Turds. Ugh. I have dreaded today all week. I start back on the dreaded methotrexate med today. We had stopped it in December because of side effects but started on a lower dose today to see how it works with my other RA med to see if I can get some relief in my very swollen and painful hands. Having a chronic illness can be discouraging and hopelessness can be overwhelming but I am always looking for hope.

My brother is still in so much pain and it breaks my heart. He has worked all week and the doctor's office is moving so slowly. I have tried to get him to see my pain doctor but alas...he is stubborn. I don't know where he could get it from!

Well, I am 15 minutes away from my long weekend I hope each of you enjoys every moment of the weekend!

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Cristy, living with a chronic illness is so hard. Praying that the meds will give you relief and no side effects this time!

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Y’all!! Crisis!!! Today is the dang um 4th! My dishwasher doesn’t come until the 5th! Tomorrow!!!!!!!

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And now it's the 5th!!!! YAY new (to you) dishwsher!

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I just posted a video of love featuring it’s glory!!

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Something to look forward to πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™€οΈ

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