No idea why the body of the newsletter didn’t publish, but alas! Feels on brand for 2021, yes?
No formal newsletter today, but wanted everyone to have a place to share goods and bads, treasures and turds, should you need/want it.
Merry Christmas, my friends. Hope you have a very gentle and kind holiday.❤️
CW: Pregnancy Loss
Every Christmas Eve for the past few years I seem to wake up sometime in the night just feeling incredibly sad. Last year I woke up crying (and I rarely cry) because I missed the 2 babies we lost to miscarriage 7 years ago. I just kept saying to my husband "They should be here with us".
It makes no sense. This year was no different. I wonder why this happens to me consistently, but I'm thinking about if I can just use these experience to create some kind of ritual of grief that might actually help me somehow. Anyone else experience weird Christmas Eve sadness?
I’ll share the most beautiful moment in my Christmas Eve service. One of the singers is native and she sang the first verse of Silent Night in the Crow (Apsaalooke) language while we lit our candles. It was incredibly moving, as my grandpa was Apsaalooke, too.