Executive Functioning Theft and a little casual Advent plan
I started listening to the Bible Binge recaps classics in one of those dark nights of the soul nights in Spring 2020 (you know late night anxiety early pandemic ones!) Searching for something to listen to that had the word Bible in the title at 3 am. I don't think I am exaggerating in saying y'all were the bridge helped me transition between churches and kept me stitched into my relationship with God. Thank you!
And oh boy those kid emotions! Lots of raggedy edges in my house as well.
I have been crying too. These teens 😫😫😫. Honestly some days lately I’m just tired. I am going to get lots of small naps in over the next 5 days. Have a great thanksgiving ❤️
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oh! Demons and spiritual warfare. The unknowns about that weighed on me for a long time. The nights & stress lost to this question and possibility in my teens...that I cannot get back. Like, are there really demons roaming among us, and I can get taken over or even possessed by just saying this 'demonic' phrase?? shivers. It really gave me a terrible lense that I saw all goth people through as well. :/ Not glad for that. Ever since I've moved away from the church a few years ago, I've had so much less intrusive & fearful thoughts about the spiritual world. Thank goodness!
Also add to that list, the snakes under the bed at night...
My students were asking me about the iPod this week, as if it was the most ancient piece of technology. So I felt both the millennial posts 🙌🏼
I love the easy, cheerful tone of the Lil Treasures.
Holidays can heighten anxieties and even bring them on. So I’m clinging to Philippians 4:6 (NASB 1995) “Be anxious for nothing …”. Max Lucado wrote a book with that title, which has also substantially lowered my blood pressure.
Hello, everyone. Thank you for all of the support last week. I am starting to feel more grief (I agree with the meme that it is not for me, although I know that emotions are necessary as humans etc) and just had a panic attack this afternoon for good measure but I am still very thankful that my grandpa doesn't have to suffer anymore. Some treasures that have helped me this week are:
-Compost. Ever since hearing Jeff Chu's Theology of Compost Evolving Faith (2019?) podcast on the subject, I am fascinated by it, and also thrilled that I was able to make some of my own! I spread it around our recently transplanted raspberry canes the other day and it was very grounding and peaceful.
-My library apparently has The First Advent in Palestine! I did not expect them to have it and am surprised and grateful that they do.
-Marcie Alvis Walker's book Everybody Come Alive. I read the chapter entitled The Dark Side of Mercy and I was not okay (in a good way!) by the end of it. Marcie is such a brilliant storyteller and her writing is phenomenal.
-Ian Wong's piano playlist on Pandora. I have been listening to it quite often and it is healing.
-Rowen White's Instagram page. She writes about her life as an Indigenous Seedkeeper and her recent reflections have been extremely helpful and very wise. They always are, but these have been striking a new chord in me.
Have the best week available to you, friends.
I'm going to miss the classic episodes - I am an OG listener and those are truly my favorites. But excited to see what is next for Faith Adjacent! And thank you for your transparency about the mental/emotional breakdowns of your family members this week. My seven year old (usually a dreamy chill little dude) has morphed into the Incredible Hulk this week and it just sucks. Then my fourth grader stayed up way too late last night downloading all of his social anxieties (glad he is sharing) and I felt so overwhelmed and underquipped. I was processing with my husband about how we are supposed to work/parent/run a house and then train/teach the kids about their emotions and hard stuff, plus have family time and fun holiday stuff...and it just feels like A LOT right now. (And that's just within these 4 walls!).
Okay onto treasures: my husband and I are doing a walking wine trail at one of our favorite estates tomorrow and then catching a movie (Ballad of S&S!) with my sis and BIL and I couldn't be more excited. I am also (FINALLY) opening my private practice after spending the past 5 months setting up all the behind the scenes office/billing/insurance stuff, which made me resonate with the "executive function theft" meme on a spiritual level.
Have a wonderful weekend, friends. Here's to hoping there's a crunchy leaf to step on (are we ever too old for that little delight?) and a cozy something awaiting you.
Honestly Erin the maple cookie pie is the easiest thing and DELISH I made it for last thanksgiving and highly recommend. Strong pick
Erin, your "so what who cares" on the final Faith Adjacent classics episode this week hit me straight in my feelings. Those episodes have changed me and how I think about scripture so deeply. I discovered the podcast/you in like May 2020 and immediately enrolled myself in seminary to listen to the full content catalog. I've listened to most of the classics more than once. They've opened up so many interesting and thoughtful conversations between myself and my significant other as well as with my family. Please know the work you all did on those episodes is some of the most meaningful, holy work I've come across.
Life has felt really heavy lately, but I'm finding bright spots where I can. Last weekend my friend let me just sit on her couch and hold her 10-day old sleeping baby for over an hour, which was pure delight.
I told my sister I would return her copy of Lessons in Chemistry by Thanksgiving, so I've been powering through that for the last two weeks. I don't like it, but I've never DNF'd a book so here we are. I'm all for an emotional/sad book, but this one just makes me mad. It's like every chapter another shoe drops, there's no joy in it. The main character is miserable, and nearly everyone around her is awful. The only parts I like are when we slip into the dog's perspective, and I don't even like animals. Fortunately I'm also reading Iron Flame at the same time, so that's a bit more fun.
Looking forward to reading The First Advent in Palestine with those of you doing the same!
“I just feel sad and I do not know where it goes.” Exactly. I stopped my husband the other day who tried to advise me while I was sobbing “I just need someplace for my pain to go. I'm not a millennial, but that was funny! I also love Mary Oliver's Drunk Cousin. Felt that poem for sure. I dont have the bandwidth to read a Thinking Book until 12/22, but I am 100% making a dried orange garland.
🍸 Dogsitting our little buddy Mochi this week who is a pint-sized pain in the ass. (He was up from 12:30-3 am scratching, lacking, and fidgeting.) His parents pick him up sometime on Thanksgiving. And after my in-laws leave (we're hosting), I'm having one of these (did i share this already? The guy has a Substack (https://open.substack.com/pub/spatchcock?utm_source=share&utm_medium=android&r=1vmrh ). Anyway it's delicious and the recipe is hilarious.
📺 Guys I think I may need to be done with Glee. Too cringe. Besides it's cozy time so I gotta get my Little Women, Norah Ephron, etc on. My other cozy thing is PBS documentaries. What can i say they have soft music and gentle narration. I watched a great PBS Independent Lens on the housing/real estate mess:
📻 Another work in progress autumn playlist. This one is mellow vibes. https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4vHOyP28nSRb7C7KrcrX9W?si=pyebGUpkQzuKsDB6ZxYMtw
And this one, which is not really in the right order. So im still “tweaking”. Jazzy. Norah Ephrony:
✈️ My husband chuckles at my Kevin McAllister-esque security measures when we travel, so he got me this. 😄 I dunno. I may add it to my light timers and radios etc. https://a.co/d/ckY1qan
👢 We do have a work trip coming up to a place that has snow, so I needed something I could wear with biz casual work clothes and not fall on my pantothenic. Out of carichter for me, I got these. I feel like these say preppy but my other shoes are Chucks. Anyway they look cute with my trousers and jeans and are super stable:
That's all I got. Hope you have the best Friday available and I will see you in the comments.
Erin, step away from the dried orange garlands!!! I tried to make some one year and they are a disaster. It is holiday lore in my family. I intended to make them for all my favorite people and actually completed only two.
It’s been a hard couple of weeks with people needing extra help. I had to remind myself that being a soft place to land in others’ lives is a core value of mine, when I would rather they all just leave me alone.
After at least a month of telling NC friends my thanksgiving dates and asking their plans they have confirmed travel plans and organized a meet up. It would have been so sad not to see them, but also trying to recognize that they have family to see and it might not all work out.
The library is at a more peaceful level of chaos which has been really nice. The dep head was applying for a new job and that really stressed the already stressed assistant dep head and tensions btwn the two were running high. Dep head didn't get the job and now we are back at peace. As much as I want success for my coworkers, our program schedule goes to print months in advance, so having someone leave is just chaotic and a lot of work for leadership trying to fill in the gaps.
My kitchen has wallpaper and it is the cutest! It looks completely different than when I closed and I'm so happy about it. I also have several new windows. There was some sticker shock, but I could immediately tell how much better the house was holding heat. If you wanna see a few pics of my house here's a little album https://photos.app.goo.gl/ZdzEMRCd8QpbpV4j7
I wanted to let you know how grateful I have been for the classic episodes. My faith has been a bit *tender* for the past several years, so it was my love for you, Knox, and Jamie that led me to tiptoe into The Bible Binge this past spring, starting with the Favored of Forsaken episodes. The curiosity, compassion, and humor (not to mention the light roasting of theo bros) displayed in these classic episodes have been such a gift and have revitalized my faith in a way I could not have imagined was possible a year ago.
Those internet treasures are hitting me in ally my feels this morning. I've been thinking quite a bit about all my girlfriends that I haven't spoken to in many years. I haven't talked to my college roommate (who shared so many going out tops with me) in a decade, and I can't bear the thought of it. And I complain so much about not having many friends, but I'm never the first one to pick up the phone.......
ANYWAY.... I can't believe this time next week my Christmas tree will be up! Time has gone by so fast this year, maybe because Thanksgiving is early and it's still quite warm here.
We are hosting Thanksgiving for the third year in a row and there is just so much to do. Now I understand why my mom would have a complete meltdown on Thanksgiving morning right before all of our family arrived. This weekend we have to focus on getting our flower beds in order, so please send your T's and P's our way for that.
Wishing y'all a stress free T'giving week! May your food be delicious and your conversations around the dinner table be filled with love and understanding for one another!